Are They Same ?

p/s : entry yang menyiatkan segala lapisan jantung aku.

The true is before this i had a partner which is called couple. Since form 5 until this year of june me on relationship with him, it's quite long relationship. I think it was my faulted, because does not give fully commitment on our relationship. HEY U ARE NOT MY HUSBAND TO GIVE FULLY ATTENTION ON U. I have my own life, and i started to telling him that 'i just wanna be alone' and i guess his know the meaning behind of this words.

Is not because i had found other guys, oh no! I am not that type of person! I am just wondering, while he's on relationship with me maybe his having a fair with another girl, yelah aku nih jenis yang biasa-biasa je, hmm baru couple kot if only my husband tak pelah jugak an. *layanan istimewa :p
Why i said so, i stalked his fb then this minah said word yang agak jiwang lah.

Then, aku bermonolog 'aikk cepat pulak jumpe girl lain' timbul pelbagai andaian di situ. Maybe on that time them like a scandal until yesterday them totally in relationship. Yes, i stalked again him fb until i had found the answer. My heart were pumping faster than usual to supplied the blood to the upper and lower body and to make sure my brain get enough of oxygen. Its to fast to get a new one right? So, memang ade curang di situ. Aduii, the word curang does not exits in my life, never!

Yesterday, i am like insomnia. Lying on the bed while putting on my earphone and listening to music too cheer me up dude under light of glow in the dark, text my old friend (bff) i thought it gonna worked but vice versa! Stop listened, stop everything! The solution are lying quietly on the bed, hugging the pillow, and lets the tear dropped out (hanya satu sahaja, tak lebih tak kurang). Then, suddenly i slept with peaceful.

The next morning i woke up that means today morning, like nothing happened taking bath, performed my solat and recite a doa for Allah knows everything and prepared my self for today duty. Hushh, menangis banyak kali pasal lelaki ? Not my style, don't be such a dumb fool person! Come on trust me, i can adapt myself on this. Haha, masuk ward selalu usha Dr. chinese and indian, melayu? Out of the list. Dr. K**** i used to called him Dr. korea coz his face like a korean artist and Dr.D****** hahaha, just having fun. Ade jugak members yang minat, aduiii tu aku punya :p Jangan amik ok!

p/s : The heart will be open untill i've meet my future husband, InsyaAllah Amin.

Salam. :) Thank You for Reading and Liking =)